My Healthy Journey

I have had requests that I chronicle how my move toward a holistic and healthy life style is coming. So here is the latest information:

I found a local chiropractor who also does nutritional evaluations, supplement evaluations and massage therapy. I have visited her office and filled out a lengthy questionnaire about my overall health. I am not keeping a food, exercise, sun intake diary for her and will visit her again next week to plot out a course of action.

Additionally, I am looking at the energy intake, out-take and general energy flow in my life as a possible place where changes can be made. I have been watching the secret and made vision boards for various things I worry about. Additionally, I purchased the book A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose by Eckhart Tolle which has already begun to change how I am thinking about my health.

I started a Grateful journal yesterday and realized I misspelled grateful for the first three pages. I spelled it GREATful. Then I mused about how that is true. If you are grateful then your life is GREAT-FULL, filled with things and ideas and interactions that are spiritually healing and moving. I have also started to journal again and will be looking at getting into an exercise routine as my body heals. Additionally, I am looking into getting into an energetic routine. It was suggested by the Chiropractor and is something I haven't decided upon; however, I am moving toward. I am also looking at my intake of electronic stimulous. How much time I am wasting with the television on and how much damage is being done to my energy by my constant bombardment with the negativity of society?

I am also trying to kill refined sugar. I am not being successful. On the 3^rd I had two cupcakes and on the 4^th I snuck a candy bar. I am drinking a super green drink daily though and have started putting processed foods out of my house. These things are going as well as can be expected. I am happy to report that I am down to drinking water and juice. Believe it or not – there is no soda in my house.

I'll keep ya'll posted.

Mind, Body, Spirit

I have been unusually quiet the past few weeks (ok, more like the past month). I thought I would blog and reconnect with readers and those who seem to take an interest in what is going on in my world.

My body has revolted. In doing so my body has given up my appendix and gall bladder in the name of getting my attention. Typically I could bombard you with funny stories about the hospital or touching ones about the things my Family Coven learned during this time period (See Modern Witch Magazine Lughnasadh issue for more on this). I think, however, I would like to address something else that is prevalent among witches, Wiccans, Neo-Pagans and those who classify themselves as "Other" in the religious category.

My name is Lydia M. Crabtree and I have only bought into 50% of my power as a witch. I believe I have the power to banish harm from my Family Coven. I believe I can manifest things under certain circumstances. However, when it comes to things that really matter – my health – my finances – circumstances that I have deemed beyond my control – these things are beyond my power – they are 50% beyond my ability as a witch. My name is Lydia M. Crabtree and I am half a witch.

I have jokingly announced to close Family Coven members that my Spirit and Body got together and have officially over ruled my mind. They have decided that I deserved the pain of two surgeries in as many weeks and the continued uncomfortable aftermaths of messing with your bowel system. The truth is, it is no joke. Laying in a hospital bed recovering from yet another surgery where a surgeon has removed polluted body parts that no longer functioned, I had to wonder how a witch – who believes in the power of transmutation – who believed and knew The Secret before the video and book – got into this situation?

Then I got to thinking about the other things in my life that are at 50% currently. What is it that I lack that has caused these horrible gaps in my magic? I have identified a few that I am dealing with now; however, I suspect that this journey is one that is going to take longer than I would like. My first problem, is I have bought into some societal lies told to me to help support commercialism.

Holistic healers will tell you, sometimes you need to have a fever and NOT take medication to stop it. The fever, as uncomfortable as it is, is doing a job. I, however, have singlehandedly supported the Ibuprophen, Acedominephine drug companies in the name of a little less discomfort versus letting nature – the thing as a witch I am suppose to be tuned into – take its course. I can recall my Sword Sister calling me with a cold and tell me she was sweating out the virus with blankets and hot tea of some healing nature and being appalled at how much trouble she would go to when the drug companies have made it so easy for us. Looking back, I think my gall bladder might have preferred I took a more holistic approach.

The problem is, I have bought into this idea that there are things that are in the realms of magic and things that are out of the realms. Things that magic can control and change and things that magic cannot. I have bought into a societal lie that I am LIMITED. No wonder my body is confused. I step into circle and draw down the power of the Goddess into my temple – a temple I abuse regularly with processed foods, unnecessary drugs, and refined sugars – and wonder why the dichotomy cannot exist. Why complete holiness cannot be tolerated in a body, mind and spirit that is only 50% committed to the magic a Goddess can do.

Then I got to thinking about my marriage to my wonderful husband – Stone. When he and I mentally, spiritually and physically are in unison – the world stops and obeys, the universe turns and moves in the direction that we command. In our lives the portions of our lives that are completely out of balance are the ones we are not in harmony over. My husband has been trying to get me to take a more holistic and healthy approach to my body for years and for years, I have rejected his wisdom. Conversely, I have been trying to convince him that the universe will take care of every financial need we could conceive if he would only believe that the universe was infinite in it's ability to care for us. And for years, he has held on to the idea that we are financially limited and struggle and money are a fact of life we must bow to.

So this week I went to Stone and admitted I was wrong. I agreed to follow his lead when it came to holistic healing. He has found a wonderful healer to see and begin addressing his issues and I have agreed to give up refined sugar, soda and as much processed foods as possible. He is elated at this turn of events and challenged by me to begin to examine his views around money and bring them closer to my view that the universe wants us to live in wealth and we simply have to claim it to own it. I am convinced that once we are of one mind when it comes to health and wealth – we will finally own both.

These are hard habits to break, deeply engrained in my psyche and a part of the life that I am trying to shake off. I have also begun to see the mind spirit connection between illnesses and the spiritual issues I thought I had addressed. It is humbling to think that these issues are still there locked in the DNA of my body and kept there by a mind too stubborn to let go.

I firmly believe that I have become successfully with a 50% commitment to the magic I believe in. Now my challenge is to become devoted to 100% of the magic the universe has to offer me. My name is Lydia M. Crabtree and I am 100% magic…or at least working on it.

 

Back from StarFest & Appendix
 
StarFest was absolutely wonderful. Stone and Tree Bear both attended Michael Stanley's MySpace workshop on meditation and LOVED it. Iona, Lady Yannu and our friend Suz all spent time with Grandmother Elspeth of Haven. They took all of her classes and found her information to be life altering. You can learn more about Elspeth and her work by reading this article.
 
Stone and I made dream catchers with Swan and I had a really great time doing it!!! I think I might actually be able to make one on my own now. I got to spend a lot of time crocheting and simply being in the shade.
 
With the help of Lady Eurhythmy and Lord Peregrine from Glen Luna the main ritual was a smashing success. Where would we have been with out FireDrake's last minute stepping up to "save our bacon?" Not to mention the drummers, chanters (especially the little fairies who lead the way), the volunteers who helped served cakes and ale and smudgers?
 
Darien, Tree Bear, Iona, Lady Yannu, FireDrake, Lady Eurhythmy and Lord Peregrinedramatic performances made the ritual one of the best I have had the honor to participate in.
 
I ran into Sophia Gross - an old friend who seems happy. It was great to catch up with her, see her daughter and hear all the positive things happening in her life.
 
I began to get sick on Sunday afternoon right after my class Family Coven: An Introduction. I was honored to be worked on by a fabulous Reiki Master, Nancy Daniel. Michael Stanley also worked on me and so did Danae, all who had seen me and inquired about my health. I figured I was dehydrated from the heat and all the energy work I had done. So Monday morning, we got up and got everything together to get the heck out of dodge and back home. We stopped by Ryan's (Stone, Yannu, Tree Bear and I) on the way out and before I could even leave the restaurant I was throwing it up. I took some Dramamine and slept all the way home. I got home still feeling nauseated and having extreme abdominal pain. I tried to help the boys unpack; however, by about 7:30 PM we were on the way to the hospital.
 
I told Stone was pretty sure I had appendicitis. After being at the ER from around 7:30 PM until 2:30 AM, we were sent away with a diagnosis of "severe abdominal pain of unknown origin."
 
We all went home and fell into bed. Stone got up and went to work to make a meeting, turned around and came home to get my medication taken care of from the night before and found me still sleeping. I told him I was feeling better and got up to finish the unpacking. As I began to unpack the pain began to return. Then I got a call from the hospital.
 
On holiday's they have a general radiologist review films and then the next business day a specialist will review the films. After a specialist had reviewed the films and my history, they had diagnosed me with appendicitis. The nurse asked if I might come back to the ER immediately to speak with a surgeon.

Stone, Tree Bear and I packed it back up and went to hospital where we found ourselves in the weighting room all of five minutes. Within hours we were in the OR and I was without an appendices. I was later told that my appendix wouldn't have lasted much longer without a rupture and it was a very good timing to have had it removed.
 
I wanted to thank Georgie - who dropped everything and came over to adult baby sit me so Stone could return to work. I want to thank Tina who is coming to adult baby sit tomorrow and Iona and Suz who have agreed to come this weekend and help with cleaning, laundry and other things. Where would DSFC be this week without all of this hands ..?
 
Additionally, I want to thank Crystal Blanton, HPS for stepping up and temporarily taking over FWTI and DSFC while I recover from the several wounds and my illness. I would also like to thank the Board of Directors, DSFC, FWTI and Jonathan Ware for their continued vigilant healing energy.
 
I should be up and completely normal again in two weeks and am well on my way right now. I love you guys and had a great time at StarFest!

Back from PUF off to StarFest

I am back from PUF and have to say I had a great time. Christopher Penczak's main ritual was amazing and spiritually altering. I can't express in words how grateful I am. Of course, another Llewellyn Worldwide author team was at PUFthis year. River and Joyce Higgenbotham were in attendance and presented their two books that have been released through Llewellyn Worldwide.

What PUF event would be complete without the attendance of Dorothy Morrison and MR Sellars? They
seem to attend every year and bring the party with them!

I also met Gina Estevez who was a beautiful soul and had much in common with me in regards to how I view the tarot। We shared dinner together and she is a soul I would love to spend more time with.

I had spent time before with Christopher Penczak's and thoroughly enjoyed him। Stone went to one of his workshops and found it interesting। I was very tired this trip and did the Birthing Hereditary Witchcraft classes back to back, so I didn't get to go to very many classes myself. I went to the Writer's Work shop and enjoyed
that seminar as much as I did last year.

Stone and I both enjoyed spending time with Ellen Dugan. I couldn't get her website to work so I haven't listed it. However, I looked over the books she has also written through Llewellyn Worldwide and got pretty excited about her. She is funny and very down to earth. I can't wait to be at other festivals with her and wear our very none witchy clothing together. She also took me aside and gave me a big huge and said, "Welcome to the family. I think your going to be great!" It was so uplifting to have such loving support. She is all about gardening and we didn't even have time to talk about my urban garden (I know have two green tomatoes in my tomato container. Although, I lost my pepper plant when the basil feel off the ledge and crushed it. It even had a baby pepper on it I was not happy!!!! My lemon balm is unstoppable; however, and I wish I knew more about drying herbs so that it wouldn't go to waste). I encourage everyone to pick up Ellen's books and book her for events. You will get a
vivacious, warm and welcoming author who is grounded in the earth and the magic we can all tap into there.

I also got to meet Shadowdancer. You can also friend Shadowdancer on MySpace। Jack, the lead singer was featured in Modern Witch Magazine's most recent issue and is the author of American Shamanism. As I listened to Jack sing with his group, I turned to Stone and said, "Damn, he does NOT suck!" Stone answered, "I know.
How cool is that?" His music blends Celtic and Appalachian influences and still sings about the gods, goddesses and witches that stir my soul. I was absolutely enchanted! I encourage you to get his CDs and order his book.
I found him to be a man of depth and of experience we would all benefit from exploring.

Stone went to a class taught by Scott Summers called "Exploring the Male Mysteries." Scott recommended
some books that I don't recall at the moment (maybe Stone could comment and give us the name of the books in question।) Stone was really inspired by Scott's workshop and actually wants to order the books. In my world, that is a big impact. Scott is a member and High Priest of Summerland Grove Pagan Church.

Stone attended the seminar with a new friend, Thor, who is a Buddhist and an Asatru. Those who follow my blog know that Tree Bear, my son, follows both paths and this was just too interesting to meet someone else who had blended the paths. Thor is a Division Manager with the Florida Pagan Gathering organization. FPG is one of the larger gatherings in Florida and Stone and I camped near them exchanging common ideas and thoughts.
Thor is interested in Quantum impact upon magic and although we never got around to talking about it, I feel that conversation in our near future. We also talked about the balance needed between the God and Goddess and how FPG was striving to find that balance in their presentations. It was a glorious conversation and I hope FPG will have me down there in 2009 (of course, only if I get my damn Cheetoes®) ((LOL)).

All in all, it was fun and relaxing and now it is time to pack up and turn around and start getting ready for StarFest.

I am off to Pagan Unity Festival. So I won't be on line for a few days. Ya'll have a great weekend and I will give a full report when I return!

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LYDIA M. CRABTREE SIGNS WITH INTERNATIONAL PUBLISHING HOUSE

CARTERSVILLE, Ga. – Local author Lydia M. Crabtree, expert on information about building Family Coven^TM, has signed a contract withLlwellyn Publications Worldwide, Inc. to publish her book Family
Coven: Birthing Hereditary Witchcraft.

“I know that this sounds trite, but it is a dream come true,”
the Cartersville resident says. “Llewellyn’s ability to promote
and distribute authors is unparalleled within our genre. So to
be picked up by them, it’s not just acknowledging that what I
have to say is important, it means that what I have to say is
going to be distributed.”

Family Coven^TM: Birthing
Hereditary Witchcraft
is a step-by-step
guide that provides families with a work-at-your-own-pace
process of infusing their lives with spiritual significance.
Crabtree uses her own research with modern neopagan families,
proven results, illustrations and charts to provide families
with the most usable techniques and practices for practicing
spirituality as a family.

“Family spirituality is a topic that has been completely
overlooked in the neopagan community,” explains the 37-year-old
Crabtree. “There has been a focus on children; there’s been a
focus on solitaries; there’s been a focus on covencraft. But the
idea that the family unit is a spiritual unit is the message
that I’m conveying.”

From mundane aspects of household chores, budgeting money and
organizing school schedules to Sabbat rituals, Family Moon (full
moon) celebrations and celebrating every stage of a growing
child’s life, Family Coven^TM: Birthing Hereditary
Witchcraft offers neopagan families an opportunity to raise
their children in a spiritual home infused with values, fun and
an intimacy they have not known before.

“This first book not only defines, explains and explores Family
Coven^TM – which is my term for family spirituality –
it also begins to teach families how they can create that legacy
of magic that many families are looking for,” says Crabtree.

Family Coven^TM:
Birthing Hereditary Witchcraft, the first book for a
planned six in a series, is slated for publication this fall.
Llewellyn Publications Worldwide, Inc. is the largest publisher
of pagan literature in the world, including fiction, nonfiction,
spirituality, self-help and reference materials. Crabtree is the
most recent author joining with the Llewellyn Publications
Worldwide, Inc. family.

“Family Coven is a revolutionary concept in family spirituality
for people of all faiths and traditions,” says

Jonathan Ware, Crabtree’s legal advisor. “It gives me great
joy as Lydia's attorney to have assisted her in bringing this
work of light into the world. I am excited about the many lives
it is certain to touch and transform."

After 10 years of studies in the occult and Wicca, Crabtree,
together with her husband priest, Tony, formed their own Family
Coven^TM in order to provide a safe environment in
which to raise their family. Soon thereafter, the Crabtrees
cofounded
Family
Wiccan Traditions International, which promotes a child’s
family as the first and most important coven in a witch’s life.
Crabtree has thus been able to utilize her Bachelor’s degree in
Psychology and minors in Theater and Journalism in both the
mundane and spiritual worlds to present meaningful, entertaining
and informative seminars, workshops and writings.

Crabtree has recently signed with

Modern Witch Magazine
as a regular features contributor to their Life and Family
section and as a columnist for “Ask a Pagan Parent.” Awarded 1st
Place in the

SpiritOne writing contest in the nonfiction category,
Crabtree has had her work published in the Family Focus section
of CIRCLE Magazine and has published various articles and
essays regarding family spirituality with online newsletters and
e-zines, including
The Witches’
Voice and
Earth Spirits
Web 2.0. Currently, Crabtree is working to complete the
first book in a series about creating a family spiritual
tradition at home called Family Coven^TM: Birthing
Hereditary Witchcraft.