Where I was; Where I am

Not a year and a half ago I was well on my way to having it all. Soon I look forward to having neurologist tell me what has been wrong with me since then. During this time of battling with my body and my soul and my spirit and my life, I have been inactive. Everything I thought was sooo important has suddenly become unimportant and now I live for the day to day activities like making it to the table for dinner and helping my son with his homework. This blog is no longer about a budding author weaving through the politics and minefields of publishing. This blog now is about a person struggling to survive one day after another.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Born to Shine
Today I was thinking about shinning, shimmering, glowing with the inner light that we are born with. It reminded me of this song. I was thinking about how sometimes our lives doesn’t prepare us to shimmer or shine. Sometimes we learn that when we shimmer or shine punishment happens. We get hit into place. We get tossed out of the boat. Somewhere we have learned that shimmering and shinning costs us.
Suddenly, I want to shimmer and shine like I was born to. "Well behaved women rarely make history."
SHAWN MULLINS
ShimmerSharing with us what he knows
Shining eyes are big and blue
And all around him water flows
This world to him is new
This world to him is new
To touch a faceTo kiss a smile
New eyes see no raceThe essence of a child
The essence
He’s born to shimmer, he’s born to shine
He’s born to radiateHe’s born to live, he’s born to love
But we’ll teach him not to hate
True love it is a rock
Smoothed over by a stream
No ticking of a clockTruly measures what that means
Truly measures what that means
And this thing they call our time
Heard a brilliant woman say
She said you know it’s crazy
How I want to try to capture mine
I think I love this woman’s way
I think I love this woman’s way she shimmers, the way she shines
The way she radiates
The way she lives, the way she loves
The way she never hates
Sometimes I think of all of this that can surround me
I know it all as being mine
But she kisses me and wraps herself around me
She gives me love, she gives me time
And I feel fine I feel fine
But time I cannot change
So here’s to looking back
You know I drink a whole bottle of my pride
And I toast to change to keep these demons off my back
Just get these demons off my back
Cause I want to shimmer, I want to shine
I want to radiate
I want to live, I want to love
I want to try to learn not to hate
Try not to hate
We’re born to shimmer, we’re born to shine
We’re born to radiate
We’re born to live, we’re born to love
We’re born to never hate