Where I was; Where I am

Not a year and a half ago I was well on my way to having it all. Soon I look forward to having neurologist tell me what has been wrong with me since then. During this time of battling with my body and my soul and my spirit and my life, I have been inactive. Everything I thought was sooo important has suddenly become unimportant and now I live for the day to day activities like making it to the table for dinner and helping my son with his homework. This blog is no longer about a budding author weaving through the politics and minefields of publishing. This blog now is about a person struggling to survive one day after another.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Thankful


This morning [Saturday, March 15, 2008], Yannu sent me an email which said:



Our mighty Lords of Spring
brought sacredness into our lives in more than one way. . .Thank all Powers That Be that battle took place last night
[Thursday] and not tonight [Friday].
Love you


Having had a wonderful date with Stone while my son was staying with his biological father, I was concerned about Yannu and called her. She informed me that a tornado had touched down in Downtown Atlanta Friday night. This is the same area of Downtown that on Thursday night my entire Family Coven had been to watch the clash of the Thrashers and Calgary.


Disbelieving I check on line and found this link:




http://edition.cnn.com/2008/US/03/14/storm.atlanta/?imw=Y&iref=mpstoryemail#cnnSTCPhoto


The first picture given is the exact entrance that Tree Bear, Stone and I had used to find our meal before the game. Within the CNN Center the area where we had sat was the area where a hole in the roof was torn and the elements had come pouring through.


In Olympic Park, the tall towers that held portions of the Olympic flame were down. The devestation is large especially in a portion of Atlanta known as Cabbage Town. This prominently African American Community is historic in our city and we have lost entire historic homes in that district.



Praise the Goddess and God for our safety


Do not now turn your eye from all those who woke this morning to no home and a shattered life


Help them restore their lives and lead us to what we can do


So Mote It Be

Friday, March 14, 2008

Family Rituals



Families often to get stuck in the idea that rituals have to be stayed and formal. There is a disconnect between spirituality and fun. Nothing could be further than the truth!

 


Last night, I had the pleasure of partaking of the most solemn and serious of rituals: Hockey Night. This ritual gathering of thousands of hockey fans to celebrate this quick, non-stop and serious sport, included my Family Coven and a rare appearance by my sister - Yannu.

The event opened with Yellow Jacketed college men singing "Oh Canada" and "The National Anthem." Their harmonies built the anticipation of this great battle, bringing the crowd to a frenzy.



Within the first period,  the sacred drama depicting the struggle between the aging winter (a Calgary Flames linemen) and the sprite Spring (The Atlanta Thrashers Lineman) battling each other for supremacy was given. Of course, Spring over came and winter is coming to an end (sadly enough, because this means hockey itself will end on April 5th).



Through out the 1st and 2nd periods, it seemed that the Atlanta Thrashers might be beaten in their own house, even though Calgary hadn't made an appearance in Atlanta since 2002.

It was not lost on those in attendance, that the Flames were actually returning prodigal sons, who had left Atlanta and made their way to the great North to seek their fortune. I was a small child when I had last watched red and white jerseys streaking across the ice in the now destroyed Omni battle arena. I can remember my family's sorrow when the red and white packed it up and left us, stranded in a southern city without the cool breeze of an ice battle to enjoy.



Now The Flames were returning to prove that Atlanta was not worthy of them or of hockey. Only the brave Thrashers stood defending that truth. Southerners deserve, want and need hockey.  The Thrashers were going to prove this with the might of their blades, the power of their checks and slashing of their sticks!



During the game, a green cladThrash beat upon his Irish Drum rallying the crowd when we let the energy wane and the possibility of loss over come our souls. Between periods we hunted for cakes and ales to sustain our screaming bodies, eating water and cotton candy (only blueberry in Blueland will do!). We feasted on hot pretzels, hotdogs (Yannu), Cracker Jacks (Stone) and ice cream (Tree Bear).

We went through the sacred shops scouring the isles for mementos that showed the sigil of our team.  My Husband Priest, Stone bought a knit hat with the sacred emblem upon it. My son, Tree Bear came out of the event with a small hockey stick. We screamed until we were all horse.



The last period was filled with resounding battle after resounding battle where finally the issue was put to bed with an empty net goal which brought the hat trick to the great and admired warriorKuvalchuk. Hats showered the ice launched from all over Phillips Arena. The beautifulBlue Crew ice princesses, skated to gather them so that play could continue and the win could be official. For the last minutes of the game, no participant sat and no participant was silent.



The Thrashers had won.



We watched as
Kuvalchuk and Holik were given one of the three sacred Stars for their play and battle. A Calgary player was given a star as well.



Often you know a ritual was good, renewing and affective, by the aftermath. I drove home with Tree Bear in the front seat sleeping peacefully dispite the ice cream, cotton candy, pretzels, soda and popcorn.  This morning, I found him cradling his hockey stick.



I feel renewed. My Husband Priest feels renewed. My son feels renewed.  We are renewed.



Thank you Thrashers! So Mote It!
Be!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The Wayward Athame Returns

My athame has made it home in one piece. The blade was wrapped in tape and I cleaned it with oil. When I got it back, I had expected that it would be filled with negative energy from all the handling it got and being treated like a murder weapon versus a sacred tool.

Interestingly enough, it was energetically singing. It was buzzing with energy - not negative and not other peoples' - actually it was buzzing with the residue of my energy. It was as if the athame had energetically protected itself against the invasion the moment it started. Or maybe when I realized what was happening in the airport, I was some how able to energetically protect it?

I put it on my altar after gently kissing it several times. I haven't been so happy to see a working tool in a long time. I placed it on the god side of the Family Coven(TM) altar and left it there to rest. I have notice the energetic level of the tool has back down to a normal level. Yet it does feel, energetically changed in some way.

I can't explain it. It is like the athame has had its own little adventure, sans me, and now has a different and more independent energy signature.

I am really interested in your opinions here. Initially I was all about finding some way to cleanse it thoroughly, removing all the energy from it and "starting over" with it. Now, I am hesitant to do this. I believe it should be rededicated to its purpose and to me; however, too thorough of a cleansing my change the vibration that it has obtained...

What are your thoughts?