Where I was; Where I am

Not a year and a half ago I was well on my way to having it all. Soon I look forward to having neurologist tell me what has been wrong with me since then. During this time of battling with my body and my soul and my spirit and my life, I have been inactive. Everything I thought was sooo important has suddenly become unimportant and now I live for the day to day activities like making it to the table for dinner and helping my son with his homework. This blog is no longer about a budding author weaving through the politics and minefields of publishing. This blog now is about a person struggling to survive one day after another.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

I WON!

So I am minding my own business doing things that Mother Priestesses do. I am in my office on the phone with Tree Bear's doctor who was talking about his current viral illness and I am multitasking - reading email.

I open an email about Essay Contests when I read:

First Prize
Crabtree Spiritual Legacy by Lydia M. Crabtree

After reading it several times, I decide it isn't a misprint and suspicious, so I read the entire article and sure enough, I wrote it! Check it out!

http://www.paganshopping.com/spiritone/

Don't worry about Tree Bear. He is sick; however, elated that his doctor has order him to stay home. He is pale and achy. I feel bad for him; however, that is part of growing up.

Blessed Samhein, everyone!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Good Day

It is 1:36 AM on October 29, 2007. This day, this moment is a good one. Everything is possible right now. The doors have opened enough for me to see through the other side and what is over there is for me.

EVEN if this door shuts or never fully opens, it is proof that it will. My struggling is not in vain. Remember this Dia, this right now, this feeling of euphoria and endless possibilities. Remember Stone's face, his cracking voice. Remember Crystal shouts and that she ran back to be the High Priestess she is before calling you back. Remember Becky's sleepy voice and that Cam doesn't answer her phone after midnight.

Remember this: Thou art Goddess and all things are made manifest before you. Hold on to this. Don't let go.

It is a GOOD DAY.